body/city of desperation explores the unstable, fractured experience of a nonbinary transgender body — a body that resists coherence, forced into legibility by violence and societal expectation. the narrative unfolds through disjointed images and physical performance, mirroring the fractured nature of gender identity and perception. the body becomes both a battleground and a sanctuary — objectified, eroticized, reclaimed.
the body is born in defiance of its own existence — assigned the wrong gender at birth, punished for instinct, violated, mocked, and commodified. bruised, anorexic, bulimic, marked by scars and disorders — the body functions as a political weapon and a contested territory. “what the fuck was that?” — the question becomes a rejection of imposed meaning, an attempt to reclaim autonomy.
the video explores the tension between objectification and reclamation, violence and pleasure. desire and annihilation blur into one another — validation, ejaculation, annihilation. the body, both fetishized and dehumanized, becomes a vessel for other people’s fantasies. “is there room for me in this body?” — the piece demands recognition beyond commodification.
through chaotic, textured imagery and intense physicality, the film resists closure. it refuses to package transness into a neat narrative of self-acceptance or victimhood. instead, it inhabits the discomfort of being both hyper-visible and erased — a body standing at the intersection of survival and radical presence.